I just started my new job at UCLA Harbor...not too bad so far.  A lot more to learn, especially policy and procedures.  Kinda miss my old time of going to school, playing with friends....been so long i haven't logged in here. 

Halloween is around the corner, too...

Picture this: You walk into a place where half of the people are strangers to you.  However, it happens that they are friends of your friend, a friend of a friend, your cousin’s friend, etc…As you soon as you sit down, you notice on one this pretty girl.  Gotta admit that girl is really cute.  Then, you also notice that there are like 3-4 guys approaching her (at the same time…!!!) and initiate the conversation, fighing over her.  What is your reaction?  Would it be:

1. I’ll walk overthere too and try to make her laugh and get her # after all…
2. I’ll wait for the guys to walk away, then I’ll come by to say hi.
3. Do nothing….Observe

Hahaha…I don’t know what you would do, but if it was me, I would go with C.  Definitely C.  Call me a “loser”? Go ahead…But that’s how I am.  Look gets my attention.  Sure, but it takes more than just look to make me move my body to ask for that girl’s number.  It’s the personality/charming that counts…

So you might ask, “How do u know someone’s personality when u first meet her?” Well, you won’t.  But you can tell if someone is nice (at the moment, I am not talking about later….hahahaha), right?  In other words, talking to that person will tell you something about him/her and yes, that will decide if I would ask for that girl’s number.  It isn’t that hard to ask a girl’s number if you know how to ask the right way…Maybe...and just maybe the second time hanging out with that same girl, I might ask for her # IF she really reveals herself with a charming personality (of course after the talking, teasing, joking and things...).

Anyway, the next day, your friend calls you to hang out with him/her…..then you meet the same guys hitting on the girl last night.  This time, there is also another pretty girl around.  And boy, you notice that the guys do the same thing as they did last night with the other girl….ahahaha….Then you wonder, “Wow….this is really hot love huh?”.  Some guys just don’t get it.

I’ve met quite a lot of new people recently.  However, nothing really is that interesting so far.  Ahahaha…Well, graduation is at the corner and the board exam is coming too….Now, that’s interesting…!

Music…it’s probably one of the most powerful communicational artwork that only human beings can ever create.  Have you ever, without any intentions or purposes, heard a song from the radio…and all of sudden, the memories of the old time-when you used to hear that lyrics, rhythms, the beats, the tones with a friend, an ex-coworker, or whoever got involved in your life at that moment…rush back so vividly.   And you just wonder if how that person is doing…whether she/he’s happy with her/his life. Then, you just smile and realize it’s all in the past and you have your own life-where you appreciate it every morning when waking up and knowing that you’re alive and loved by your family and other wonderful people . 

Someone once told me that love is an illusion.  Do you think that’s true?   According to his “experience” (btw, he’s married with kids…), love will die along the way after marriage.  Hmm…What do you think about this “theory”? As far as I see, that is 90-95% TRUE, BUT there are always exceptions.  I’m lucky enough to see such exceptions. 

As you move on in life, there are times you probably care to look back at the past.  The past, in general, evaluates and tells you what you have done/achieved/experienced about the so-called “complicated” life.  The past brings you smiles in your heart when you have invested your time/effort in the right place/person.  But, the past could also bring you pain and leave behind non-erasable scars….Whether joys or sorrows the past reminds you, one fact that you have to realize: Life goes on!

Growing up and being away from home, I have learned a lot about life, people, and how to handle certain situations.  Usually, back in OC, I have my old friends who have known me for years, my cousins, and especially family.  So, when I have problems, I might just hang out with them and the issue would be eased…Here, things are very different.  I started to realize that being too nice is not a good thing.  People usually take it for granted and your kindness unfortunately turned out to be un-noticed/appreciated.  I have learned not to judge people by their look, values, cultures, and nothing really is forever.  So is love.  It can come unexpectedly, but might leave out of your hand before you even realize it. 

I also have learned how to deal with failure.  Sometimes, when you think of something is important, it will be; and if you lighten the problem, it would be easier for your life.  Don’t take anything too seriously.  Anything has a solution and eventually brings to a closure; whether or not you are happy with it, you have to accept it.  The key is how to overcome the failure and regain your strength within.  Easy said than done…and only you have to fail at it to understand the true mechanism of recovery.  If you can’t stand up and walk tall after the falling, you will be drowned in further failures in your life.  Live and learn-that’s the only way how you become better everyday.

I am also thankful for such positive friends surrounding me.  The kind of  friends that give me good advices.  I do take your advices seriously.  Thank you for those who had been there for me during the time I was very down; or not being myself…Thank you for the moments when we all have laughed and taught each other about school, relationships, everything in life…Thanks for the laughs, the jokes we made at each other.  I won’t forget those tennis, basketball moments.  Thanks for putting up with me when I didn’t feel so well.  You have taught me to understand more the term “Compromising”.  Friendship lasts….

Finally, I’d like to thank all of my past relationships, my ex girlfriends.  Whether you broke my heart or I broke yours, it doesn’t matter anymore.  What truly matters is that you all have taught me some lessons in life and I am peacefully thankful for them.  Whether or not I brought love/sorrows to you in the past, now, at this moment, from the bottom of my heart, I wish you all success and happiness in your life .  Hope the next men who walk into your lives will treat you with all respect. Hope that he’ll hold you tight in his warm arms to protect you when you’re scared.  Hope that he’ll be there for you to cry on.  Hope he’ll pick up his phone at 3:00AM in the morning when you call.   Hope he’ll listen to your problems and figure out the solutions together with you.  Hope he’ll be more patient with you when you are not in a bad mood… And at some moments, when things are not so great, learn to forgive people and compromise each other.  Compromising is the most important to make a relationship last. If things can’t be compromised, do not sit and try to make sense of why your goodness was rewarded with scorn, for you will only weary yourself and embitter your own heart. Instead the very best thing you could do for yourself and your own sanity is to truly forgive that other person for their wrongdoing.. admit to any mistakes of your own and continue on with your life a little wiser for the experience…

I am packing and getting ready to move back California this Friday for my rotations.  Good bye Las Vegas….I’ll miss you !